You knew long before how I would feel
You hoped you would be wrong, that it wouldn't happen to me
But it did, and now I can't stop caring
Everything I do, it's there
Hiding in shadows
Sitting, waiting for a chance to jump out
But this I would willingly take
I do willingly take
Because I can't stop caring
I can't let it go, it's too much a part of me
It hurts, but I'll keep it
For letting it go would hurt so much more
I will give it all I have and when that's gone
I'll give more
So you knew before I did how I would feel
But you didn't stop me, because you knew
That with all the pain, it was still more than I could have asked fo
He smelled faintly of smoke when he walked onto the elevator. Not like his usual smell, the smell of a night out, the smell of cigarettes and faint perfume from other bodies pressed against him. Holding tight, not feeling, just moving. Up and down, back and forth, dancing, grinding, harder and harder, all to a pulsing bass. No. Not that smell at all. It was the smell of fire, of slow burning wood and heat.
That smell made it sensual and close. He leaned against the wall on the far corner, yet she could still smell him. She imagined what he could have been doing. Perhaps a small fire on the beach, under the stars. Or something more mysterious
I was bouncing my pen against the wall, sitting on the bed, catching the pen a respectable amount of the time in my right hand. I had one of those cool pens that sported some sort of rubber jacket, which made the whole thing flexible and bouncy. Yep. Come to think of it, it's probably the only cool thing I own. Must've bought it on impulse. (That's about as impulsive as I get, buying some goddamned flashy pen). Up until now, anyway.
My mom should've seen me, throwing a pen against what could've been a stainless wall, without bruises and carefully cleaned every day. She wasn't around though, hell no, I could throw all kinds of crap against t